"How are you feeling?" and an Update

I had a doctor's appointment on Monday.  It was uneventful.  My blood pressure is 110/68 and I am up 25 lbs which is right on track to where I was last time (actually a few lbs behind).  BP is moving around a ton and has a heart beat of 130 (which she has had for the past few visits).   I met a new doctor and I am now convinced that I do not want to be induced to have a "stable environment" for when I deliver.  I want quick and easy like last time.  Where can I place my order for that?

We are finally starting to prepare ourselves and the house for BP's arrival.  Gwen's Big Sister room will be complete this weekend (I'll share pictures) and we are going to paint the nursery this weekend as well.   I've gotten some energy back lately, so I am starting to nest on weekends.  Things are finally moving forward so the stress is subsiding a bit.

As for me, I keep getting the question "How are you feeling?"  I really want to say that I have felt like shit for the past 28 weeks (or 7 months), feel absolutely gigantic and gross, hate being pregnant with every ounce of my soul, and can't wait to NEVER have to be pregnant again.  I don't answer that way.  I say a polite "fine" just tired. 

The truth is, the past few weeks I have actually felt the best, physically, that I have felt the entire time (that isn't saying much).  My exhaustion has subsided and I am only really tired at the end of the day and if I exert myself too much.  I started swelling again this week but I think it is because I have been working a lot and not moving around.  I think BP dropped as she is no longer in my ribs and I am not feeling as uncomfortable.  I still get 5-10 Braxton Hicks contractions a day, but that is normal for me.  The daily bloody noses suck, but I would rather have those than stretch marks.  I saw pics of someone with stretch marks and I was SHOCKED at how they looked.  I have never seen them before. 

Emotionally I am not doing all that great.  I just feel so huge, gross, and ugly.  I have barely exercised this entire pregnancy, besides a walk here and there, so I feel like my butt, arms, and legs are so flabby with no muscle tone.  My eating habits haven't been the best either.  I feel sluggish and blah all the time.  I just keep thinking about how much weight I am going to have to lose after all is said and done and I just feel like it will be impossible with 2 kids.  If I can't make time now to exercise, when will I with 2 kids.  I cry a lot from being upset at how I look and feel.  It doesn't help that everyone is always commenting on how I must be due any day now.  I am actually embarrassed to tell them that it is the end of July.  All in all, I will get by and in T-7ish weeks, I should be holding a gorgeous infant in my arms.