Reflection....

Each December 31st I reflect upon the year that was and look forward to new beginnings.  This year as I looked back onto 2014, which was arguably one of the hardest years of my life, I am able to focus more on what I have learned, what I have let go, and my blessings.

In a year where my mother battled cancer and my husband lost his job, I felt defeated and spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself........played the victim.  Then Mike got a job and my mom got a clean bill of health.  That made me really look at my life an
d who I had become in a brutal year.

I became comfortable in my own skin.  I never understood how women could do this.  I didn't get it. This year, in a way, forced me to do this.  I stopped worrying about stupid things about myself, that I couldn't control.......my moles, my small breasts, the way my gut is always a little rounder.........I realized that worrying about those things are unnecessary and to instead focus on those things you can control.  I gained confidence at work and with myself.  This will only make me a better mom to my daughter.  She needs a role model that doesn't have a messed up body image, one with energy and life........one that is happy.  So slowly but surely I am getting there.  I am getting to be that happy mom.  Not sure what that means for 2015, but am anxious to see.

My blessings are all around me.  Besides the obvious amazing children and family.  I have friends who bring so much light into my life.  Tonight, after Mike and I went out for sushi, we went to a friend's house and I was able to look around and really pause and thanks whoever that they are in my life.  It was a great night especially because we came home to my parents.........my healthy and amazing parents.

Happy New Year.

Now for the only New Years picture I have.  It's my craziest blessing and I wouldn't have it any other way!!