Why Does This Make Me Sad?

The truth is my hormones have made me a blubbering mess since November 2010 when I found out I was pregnant with Baby Pink (i.e. Baby Leo).  I cry at commercials, TV shows, thoughts of something wonderful/sad, sweet things my dad says on Facebook, watching my babies grow up......the list goes on and on. 

For a little over 3 weeks I have been exclusively pumping thanks to a medical condition I will not get into.  I am currently weaning Leo to be a full time formula fed baby, because to be honest, I hate the pump.  Today he gets 2 breast milk bottles and 4 formula bottles (yes he eats a lot considering he gets 3 "meals" too).  Tomorrow he'll be down to 1 breast milk bottle and once I use up the stash, he will be on formula full time.  Today when I dropped to 3X 10 minute pumping sessions I felt anxiety and sadness and I have no idea why.  I'm not getting to enjoy our time together while nursing, I pump watching TV or at work.  I wonder if it is because I know this is my last baby?  Maybe it's because my hormones are crazy and even though endings are really beginnings of something else, they are still sad? 

I will miss my breaks at work (I already do......I went from 3X 20 minute pumping sessions to 1 X 10 minutes) but am SO EXCITED to get my body/life/mental state back.  I can't stand the sound of the pump any longer.  It will be nice to just go and not have to worry about it.  It's my last final leash to this pregnancy/newborn.  I will no longer be the only one that can do something for Leo.........................maybe that's why I am sad...........