Mike and I dropped Gwen off at her new daycare this morning. She was a little shy at first but seemed okay. She went to sit at a table for breakfast and there was no room with the other kids, so she sat alone. It's bad enough that I dropped her off in a strange location with strange people, but she had to sit alone to eat??? I stayed with her for as long as I could but knew that I had to get to work. When we walked away I heard her crying "mama". My heart was literally ripped from my chest. I am at work and can't think of anything but her.
I know I am someone that can't be a stay at home mom. As much as I LOVE Gwen I know I couldn't spend my life keeping her occupied and keeping the house clean. I need intellectual stimulation and would go bonkers being at home all the time and dealing with other mom's and their competitiveness (and their bratty kids). I wish I could live in a perfect world where I worked part time and was with Gwen part time. I guess I do have something to strive for.
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