My motherly instinct told me that Gwen would be walking by 18 months. I just had a "feeling". I have yet to be wrong about my "feelings" until now. Tomorrow marks Gwen's 18 Month Birthday. She is not walking. She was put in PT, for significant gross motor skills delay, caused by strength in her ankles and hips. The physical therapist seems to think otherwise. Gwen is strong. Gwen is doing EVERYTHING she needs to be doing to walk. It's like the PT appointments are pointless because Gwen can do everything that is asked of her, outside of PT, but is not an active participant, during PT.
I hate that she has to crawl on the floors at parties (GROSS). I hate that she has to crawl around the playground. I hate that she can't wear dresses. I hate that at daycare all of the kids are outside playing, and she has to stay inside, alone, because there is concrete where the kids play. I hate that everyone tells me that I am worrying, for nothing, because I am a "first time mom". I hate all the stupid advice people give me like "try bribing her" and "I did x,y,z and it worked". Don't you think I have tried EVERYTHING down to buying shoes that squeak??? I hate that she can't even stand on her own. I hate that she won't even try.
I have anxiety.....
I am frustrated.....
I am sad.....
2 comments:
Hey Court,
I am sorry you are feeling down. Obviously I have no unsolicited advice to give:) I can sympothize with your worry when it comes to your child not being where you feel they should be. While neither of my boys are born yet, they are small and it has me panicked and scared but everyone likes to tell me that I am lucky, they will grow etc.. Sometimes you just want someone to agree with you, even if you do know in the back of your head it will all work out, because bottom line no matter what it has too. Anyway hope tomorrow is a better day
Alpha love,
B
It's ok to hate. Its ok to be pissed. Gsen is always full of surprises.
Love,
Chris
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